So here we go!! My transfer cycle has officially started. We have an official transfer date of August 25th. I have to admit I was pretty overwhelmed when I got my transfer calendar (see below). I had no idea there was so much that went into this part. This has probably been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through, emotionally and physically. (And the pregnancy hasn't even started yet!) lol There is so much this process has taught me and I can tell you I am a different person following this experience in more ways than one. One thing that has been particularly hard for me is that I have gained 20# since the start of this process (and more hormones to come oh my!). I have always been healthy and fit, I work out 5 days a week and eat healthier than probably 90% of the population so this has taken a HUGE toll on me. I have had to buy all new clothes, I get short of breath when I walk, I don't feel good about myself. Its been an eyeopening experience. For a short while I was even avoiding putting pictures of myself on Facebook because I was afraid of what others would think and how they would judge me. Finally I realized IIII was one of those people!!! I was afraid of what others would think about me because I myself had judged people on their appearance on Facebook! I had never really thought about it that way. I'm sure we are all guilty of it at some point but this has really showed me that I was being judgemental of people, people who I had NO IDEA what was going on in their lives. I had NO IDEA what their stories were or why they had gained weight etc. I can't even believe that I had allowed myself to judge people like that. Its a huge confession that I have to make. I can tell you from this day forward I will NOT make that mistake again.

So as of for now I have come to the realization that this is a part of the journey. Yes I may be overweight and yes I may not look like some of my bikini model physique friends. But I am putting everything I have into creating human life, and THAT is worth way more to me than worrying about what other people think. Maybe God is allowing me to stretch my skin a little before pregnancy so I wont get so many stretch marks! HAHAHAHA Come on Baby Amacker!! We are ready for you!!